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admire_addicts @ 2009-06-13T17:24:00

2009-06-13T21:35:54Z

high school is over. it seems like just yesterday i was getting ready for my 1st day of high school.. being all nervous & intimidated.. getting lost going everywhere. i've met some great people these four years and wish i didn't grow apart from most of them. i'm not sad... i'm just shocked. it honestly feels like just yesterday i was wearing converses, bows in my hair, studded belts.. listening to taking back sunday, mars volta, and brand new.. staying after school every day to watch the guys skate board.. lying to my mom 100% of the time.. playing stupid tricks on dave rivera.. german lady.. stupid fights & stupid heartbreaks and caring way too much about things.. bumming around with maddy.. making up and fighting with her.. i wish i could have spent my senior year with her. it would have been so much better.. i love her more than i've ever loved any friend. i hope to see her sometime soon. it seems like most of my memories are from 9th grade. which is great and completely fine with me. 10th grade sucked. 11th grade driving around with dan and vinnie.. pretending to be an alcoholic to hang out with maddy.. holding hands with travis in the hallway :) .. everything. 12th grade, you sucked. you wouldnt of sucked if everything went with my plans.. finally getting my license but having no one to lug around (which would have been maddy). ugh. anyway... high school will be missed. especially my first year of it.. i was so free and did not give a shit and created havoc wherever i went.. and i want to be like that again. heres to a new chaptaaaa! florida, here i come.

admire_addicts @ 2009-05-28T21:09:00

2009-05-29T01:14:34Z

last weekend i was in new york city with erin brian & megan. i went friday night and left saturday night... it was tons of fun. f.a.o shwarz....i cant spell.. was fun. so was the carousel in central park. we walked around a lot though and my feet killed. but going to nyc and actually spending the night there and walking around with friends just made me realize, i'm meant to be there. i need to live there. so i've pretty much mapped out what i want my life to be.. and i really hope i get the chance to live it this way. live in florida for four years. move to nyc as soon as i graduate.. get a job at a high school as a history teacher.. eventually get my masters at NYU. live in chelsea. buy a boston terrier(first on my list). and then whatever. tomorrow im getting my impacted molars out and im not happy about it... and im really scared that im gonna be put out and never wake up. :( ugh but i do get to live off smoothies and icecream so that is good.

admire_addicts @ 2009-03-31T21:06:00

2009-04-01T01:19:32Z

so.... i haven't written in this in a very long time. i read one of the best books i've ever read in my entire life. "the average american male" its so real and amazing. this guy living in la is going out with this girl casey and hes so miserable cause shes insane (haha) and then they break up and he starts dating this girl alyna and shes perfect and they have sex all the time and hes exactly what he needs. and then in the last chapter hes talking about how basically..... 6 months later they only had sex like 50 times blah blah blah and they always fall asleep without her even touching him. but he realized all relationships end up like this and sees that its the best hes gonna get... so he asks her to marry him. i guess thats kinda happy but yet its so sad that so many people can be unhappy and be forced to settle or be alone. idk. i hope that never happens to me. but the book is totally better than i described it. in 4 days i go to florida!!!! im going to tallahassee and staying with brian i think. i get to see tallahassee community college and maybe take a tour of the townhome im moving into. but i dont really care about that. i just wanna have fun. its really scary to me that ive lived here for almost 18 years and i am not going to miss a single soul. except for my mom and bobby. when i signed my lease it was like a sigh of relief that im never going to have to try and impress or hang out with these assholes ive had to associate with for four years. i truly am not going to miss ANYONE. anyone. no one. which is sad i guess.... but no one is going to miss me either. so ok. fine. and i dont even think im gonna tell anyone the exact day im leaving either to bypass trying to get together and say goodbye. fuck that. im just gonna leave. anyway.. i guess thats all i have to say.

admire_addicts @ 2008-12-19T14:25:00

2008-12-19T19:34:05Z

i wanted to go christmas shopping today aka go to abercrombie and buy a pair of jeans. fuck the snoowwwwW. this weekend is going to be spent taking things one at a time out of my room to wash and pack. i dont wanna spend too much time in there cause i found a huge spider today. i was hoping that since its at least 30 degrees in my room that theyd all fucking die and i can have my room back but apparently not. but yeah florida on monday! havin tonszzzz of fun! if i do not see/hug/make out/ with ss i will dieeee cause seeing him just makes me laugh so much. and i miss erin. i hope we have time to go to tally to scope out townhomes. i really want a townhome! u mmmm um um um um im on season 3 of the L word. probably the top 3 best shows in america. my mom bought me a hamburger phone like the one in juno. and i got a gps so i can finally figure out how to get places and go to sarahs next show! idk what im gonna name my gps and its reeeeallyyy stressin me out. i was thinking "nice black man" but im pretty sure my gps talks in a british girl voice. so maybe ill name her helena. my step brothers and kelly are coming over tomorrow. i miss erin. &i just want it to be monday! ok .bye

admire_addicts @ 2008-10-02T20:41:00

2008-10-03T00:44:21Z

today i hung out with lindsey for a bit and i hung out with caroline and sketchy people at an apartment. i really thought i was gonna get lost on the way back but i didnt<3 thank god i know 44. i really love caroline and i wanna hang out with her a lot! and i wanna see nick and norahs infinite playlist too. really badly.. and i kind offffff wanna try sushi again because i was too drunk to remember if i liked it or hated it but i just associate it with throwing up cause its the last thing i ate after i puked my brains out for 2 days. hmph

admire_addicts @ 2008-10-01T20:35:00

2008-10-02T00:39:06Z

im gonna start writing again so that i can look back and remember what ive been doing!! last weekend i hung out with sean and sat in his bed all day watching superbad and some what not to wear and that ralphie may guy.

today i got my shoes in the mail. theyre really cute and have a bow. i love them! ahhh and i ordered a keychain that was blindboxed so i didnt get to pick which one i wanted and there were like 30 but i got the one i wanted!!!! the pink cupcake<3. i reallyreallyreally want cotton candy and project runway is on in 20 minutes. i need to go to american apparel and get fall/winter clothes cause i have none! oh and i dyed my hair dark again because i was tired of the blonde on top! thats all.

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-29T22:05:00

2008-08-30T02:06:06Z

lastnightwassogood!!!!!!!!

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-20T21:34:00

2008-08-21T01:38:23Z

brian in a text: still fly is so good erin: hannah whats still fly? me: still fly? erin: yeah brian just said still fly is good me: idk ask him erin: wait i think its a radio station right? me: oh yeah yeah yeah still fly! erin: yeah still fly radio station! me: yeah i think thats it. erin in a text: whats still fly? brian in a text: that song by big tymers me: *downloads song* me and erin: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <311months<3

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-20T21:27:00

2008-08-21T01:27:07Z

"i won't cry over it anymore. i won't storm off. i won't block you. i won't delete you. i will simply accept that my love for you touched the sky and your love for me barely made it off the ground." ----- chris crocker "despite everything, I love you. my heart overflows with love for you. I sign online and you're the first thing I look for. I wake up and you're the first thing i think of.. I go to sleep and you're the last thing I shrug off. " --- chris crocker

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-16T21:09:00

2008-08-17T01:09:46Z

i'm cutting you out of my life. not because i hate you or anything but because i need to. bye bye !

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-14T18:53:00

2008-08-14T22:54:03Z

I'd walk through hell for you
Let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue
My soul is useless without you

Now I've walked through hell for you
What's an adventurer to do,
But rest these feet at home with you

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-13T21:10:00

2008-08-14T01:10:41Z

so sad.

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-03T18:55:00

2008-08-03T22:55:23Z

Anything to make you smile
You are the ever-living ghost of what once was
I never want to hear you say
That you'd be better off
Or you liked it that way

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

admire_addicts @ 2008-08-02T11:26:00

2008-08-02T15:35:00Z

all you need is love is a lie, cause we had love but we still said goodbye. now we're tired, battered fighters. and it stings when its nobodys fault cause theres nothing to blame at the drop of your name, its only the air you took, and the breath you left.

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-30T21:16:00

2008-07-31T01:16:29Z

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-27T20:44:00

2008-07-28T00:49:57Z

im bored as shit. i hate that my car is broken ughughugh. but i just made THE.BEST.CD. for when its fixed. omg its so exciting. its all the songs i listened to non stop in florida<3 1- get buck in here dj feli fel. 2 - got money lil wayne. 3- a millie lil wayne. 4- get silly v.i.c. 5- paper planes m.i.a. 6 - sugar gimme some ludacris. 7- lala lil wayne. 8 - corona and lime shwayze. 9- phone home lil wayne. 10- the queen and i gym class heroes. 11- playing with fire lil wayne. 12- mrs.officer lil wayne. 13-handlebars flobots. 14-let the beat build lil wayne. 15-3 peat lil wayne. 16-mr.carter lil wayne. 17-lollipop lil wayne. 18-shoot me down lil wayne. 19-alfie lily allen. <3333333333333333333333333

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-27T20:41:00

2008-07-28T00:43:43Z

I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
and I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
and I can end the planet in a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-19T23:23:00

2008-07-20T03:31:00Z

awwwww i miss maddy....... and my old best friend
and you.

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-19T14:58:00

2008-07-19T18:58:26Z

The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-18T21:44:00

2008-07-19T01:45:05Z

baby will you be my corona and lime? and i will be your main squeeze

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-15T18:27:00

2008-07-15T22:31:18Z

watching juno always makes me so depressed. i wish a guy liked me as much as paulie likes juno =[ hhahahha, seriously though. i just want someone who will text me when he wakes up, come over unexpectedly, hug me and kiss me a lot, and just be nice. i want someone to care for and who will appreciate the cute things i do and who will make me food. cause i eat a lot. and who will call me a lot. but not be too much of a baby. and and and idk whatever. i already know he is out there he just doesnt want anything to do with me lolol. okay. bye.

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-14T23:43:00

2008-07-15T03:43:41Z

i am so sad. i was so happy before. SO HAPPY. this is what you fucking do to me. not dealing with it anymore.

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-05T12:50:00

2008-07-05T16:51:33Z

"and im sorry hannah likes 100 pound pussies who wear gym shorts as part of their daily outfit." - collin. HOW DOES EVERYONE KNOW ME SO WELL?!?!?! but im pretty sure hes talking about tom. yesterday was fun. i want an enter button.

admire_addicts @ 2008-07-04T14:31:00

2008-07-04T18:32:41Z

i wish i had a boifriend to kiss under the fireworks in florida ='[

my birthday is so soon!

a lot of my birthday money is going to gas.

my gas moneys is eating my clothes money =[=[

admire_addicts @ 2008-06-28T15:25:00

2008-06-28T19:27:04Z

this is the first summer i am going to spend not worrying about you and what you are doing and wondering if you ever think of me. as a matter of fact, i wont anymore at all. not just this summer. and it feels good =]